Another kind of Love
Olympia, wa
Heritage Park Fountain Olympia, WA TANYA Tonight. I had to get out. Walk. Just breath. People on the street pass by me ...some stop, some ...but most I walk by them but they’re humming her songs, our songs. Those fans. All coming here. Camping out, singing her songs. It’s like mom is here. This was her night to go but she never left. She’s here. And I don’t why but .... I don’t hear a thing. (She smiles.) Not a goddamn beat. No music. The radio is going, music from speakers, people singing up and down and down the streets, replaying the video of her up there that night, and I just see her standing at the fountain, when she’d take us there after a show staring up at the moon smiling like a crazy person. Happy. |
Uk punk - 1975-1978
The Sex Pistols
- Formed 1975 - Sid Vicious joined 1977 |
The Clash
- Formed 1978 |
Seattle Grunge - 1980
The Melvins
- Formed 1983 - Rehearsed in and around Olympia - Rotated drummers/bass players throughout |
Soundgarden
- Formed 1984 |
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Alice in Chains
- Formed 1987 |
Nirvana
- Formed 1988 - Met at Melvins rehearsal space |
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Riot Grrrl - 1990
Feminist punk rock movement of the early 1990s.
Excerpt from documentary The Punk Singer - "Girls to the Front"
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Bikini Kill playing their song Sugar at CBGB
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http://grrrlmovie.com/
Other Bands mentioned in the script
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Collin's Bands
Rock Stars behaving badly
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http://www.rollingstone.com/music/news/ruling-asses-oasis-19960502
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Heroin
Rapid Effects of Heroin Use
The effects are rapid but will depend on the method of ingestion. Intravenous injection provides the greatest intensity and the most rapid onset of euphoria (7 to 8 seconds). Intra-muscular injection produces a relatively slow onset (between 5 to 8 minutes). Sniffing or smoking usually provides peak effects within 10 to 15 minutes.
First-time or infrequent users often experience nausea and vomiting after injecting heroin intravenously. If they aren't turned off by feeling sick and continue using the drug, the user can experience both a "rush&" and a "high."
The rush has been described as similar to an orgasm, and only lasts for a minute or two. Like a sexual release, the rush provides a release of tension for the heroin user. The rush may be due to the smack user's brain being introduced to a dose of the drug.
Once the initial rush has passed, there can be a feeling of heaviness, as though your bones have melted down into your feet; followed by a feeling of distance from events around you, as though you've been wrapped in cotton wool. Heroin sedates the central nervous system clouding mental function and making you feel drowsy for several hours after a dose.
The result is a comforting glow and a deep sense of satisfaction. Any problems or stresses the user may have in his or her life seem very far away during this time, which can last for four or five hours. You may appear to be asleep, but actually be awake.
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After I finish the shot, I usually have about five seconds or so in which I can pull the syringe out of my arm, and blot down the blood with some paper towels. First I get this "punch" of flavoring that I sense in my nose and on my taste buds, and I feel as if the muscles in my eyes sort of relax, making my vision go a bit blurry for a second. Then I feel as If my whole body tenses up for a moment, as if it is burdened by some gigantic pressure, and is suddenly relieved of it. My knees feel slack, and my arms sort of dangle as if they're made out of rubber. I always imagine a beautiful flower popping out of the top of my head, because that's just what heroin feels like to me, something beautiful and natural (so beautiful, it has the power to turn me into a thieving junky.)
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but then, of course, i got a vein and saw the plume of super dark blood, my heart dropped just cause i knew i was finally about to feel what everyone said was so amazing, pushed the plunger, and… what i do remember is feeling like the sky had fallen on me, like a brick wall of warmth and amazing euphoria going 300 mph hit my body like i never could have imagined. i love opiates, out of everything i've ever tried, which is pretty much everything minus meth, i'm pretty sure i'll only ever do opiates if anything for the rest of my life, so of course to me, this was the best feeling ever. i can't explain the rush that comes just seconds after the plunger is all the way down, it's just simply amazing, like popping or sniffing two 80mg oxy, waiting for the peak, take that peak and multiply it by 100, and its that all in the matter of seconds, gets stronger for about 20 seconds, then the nodding comes.
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Pull back. The blood rushes in. I got it. Slowly push the plunger? I want this to last. Pull it back out again, the blood swirls back in. Now. Squeeze. This is what they mean by a rush. It rushes up my arm in tingles. Then it hits. Shit. It is like a mini explosion of pure pleasure. Everything is blissful and beautiful psychologically. I love everything. It is pure joy to be alive, to have a body; briefly that is the only awareness.
Depending on the quantity and quality this echoes a little or a lot. Sometimes it is there for hours. Sometimes it fades to just feeling amazing.
It is sensual. All your nerves are on fire and just having someone run their fingers along your skin feels delicious. It isn't really sexual. I think it is simply that the intensity of the experience lends itself to being described that way. It is actually difficult to orgasm while high on Heroin. Most people can't, but a woman can, with determination. Wow. Wow. Wow.
If you are doing nothing then you tend to "nod off" which is definitely similar to the dozing state after you wake up. When really stoned dreams feel very real (lucid) and often you are disturbed by replying. Woken up by your own talking, it can be quite confusing that there is another reality.
Most people tend to try to be inactive to encourage this state. Those of us with backwards brains (ADHD users are often talkers on heroin) like to do things like read or talk to get into an "awesome" conversation. I used to take a little bit to do school work because it helped me focus. Anyway I am getting off the subject.
This is when you are "high" on heroin. This gets rarer the more you use regularly as your tolerance rises.
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The effects are rapid but will depend on the method of ingestion. Intravenous injection provides the greatest intensity and the most rapid onset of euphoria (7 to 8 seconds). Intra-muscular injection produces a relatively slow onset (between 5 to 8 minutes). Sniffing or smoking usually provides peak effects within 10 to 15 minutes.
First-time or infrequent users often experience nausea and vomiting after injecting heroin intravenously. If they aren't turned off by feeling sick and continue using the drug, the user can experience both a "rush&" and a "high."
The rush has been described as similar to an orgasm, and only lasts for a minute or two. Like a sexual release, the rush provides a release of tension for the heroin user. The rush may be due to the smack user's brain being introduced to a dose of the drug.
Once the initial rush has passed, there can be a feeling of heaviness, as though your bones have melted down into your feet; followed by a feeling of distance from events around you, as though you've been wrapped in cotton wool. Heroin sedates the central nervous system clouding mental function and making you feel drowsy for several hours after a dose.
The result is a comforting glow and a deep sense of satisfaction. Any problems or stresses the user may have in his or her life seem very far away during this time, which can last for four or five hours. You may appear to be asleep, but actually be awake.
***
After I finish the shot, I usually have about five seconds or so in which I can pull the syringe out of my arm, and blot down the blood with some paper towels. First I get this "punch" of flavoring that I sense in my nose and on my taste buds, and I feel as if the muscles in my eyes sort of relax, making my vision go a bit blurry for a second. Then I feel as If my whole body tenses up for a moment, as if it is burdened by some gigantic pressure, and is suddenly relieved of it. My knees feel slack, and my arms sort of dangle as if they're made out of rubber. I always imagine a beautiful flower popping out of the top of my head, because that's just what heroin feels like to me, something beautiful and natural (so beautiful, it has the power to turn me into a thieving junky.)
***
but then, of course, i got a vein and saw the plume of super dark blood, my heart dropped just cause i knew i was finally about to feel what everyone said was so amazing, pushed the plunger, and… what i do remember is feeling like the sky had fallen on me, like a brick wall of warmth and amazing euphoria going 300 mph hit my body like i never could have imagined. i love opiates, out of everything i've ever tried, which is pretty much everything minus meth, i'm pretty sure i'll only ever do opiates if anything for the rest of my life, so of course to me, this was the best feeling ever. i can't explain the rush that comes just seconds after the plunger is all the way down, it's just simply amazing, like popping or sniffing two 80mg oxy, waiting for the peak, take that peak and multiply it by 100, and its that all in the matter of seconds, gets stronger for about 20 seconds, then the nodding comes.
***
Pull back. The blood rushes in. I got it. Slowly push the plunger? I want this to last. Pull it back out again, the blood swirls back in. Now. Squeeze. This is what they mean by a rush. It rushes up my arm in tingles. Then it hits. Shit. It is like a mini explosion of pure pleasure. Everything is blissful and beautiful psychologically. I love everything. It is pure joy to be alive, to have a body; briefly that is the only awareness.
Depending on the quantity and quality this echoes a little or a lot. Sometimes it is there for hours. Sometimes it fades to just feeling amazing.
It is sensual. All your nerves are on fire and just having someone run their fingers along your skin feels delicious. It isn't really sexual. I think it is simply that the intensity of the experience lends itself to being described that way. It is actually difficult to orgasm while high on Heroin. Most people can't, but a woman can, with determination. Wow. Wow. Wow.
If you are doing nothing then you tend to "nod off" which is definitely similar to the dozing state after you wake up. When really stoned dreams feel very real (lucid) and often you are disturbed by replying. Woken up by your own talking, it can be quite confusing that there is another reality.
Most people tend to try to be inactive to encourage this state. Those of us with backwards brains (ADHD users are often talkers on heroin) like to do things like read or talk to get into an "awesome" conversation. I used to take a little bit to do school work because it helped me focus. Anyway I am getting off the subject.
This is when you are "high" on heroin. This gets rarer the more you use regularly as your tolerance rises.
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